It feels like things are all changing very fast at the moment – mostly I think because I am weaning Elsie off breastfeeding. We are now down to just one breastfeed a day, at night, and last night there was hardly anything there so I think we’ll be stopping completely within a couple of days. Although this will be quite liberating in the sense that I won’t have to worry about what I eat and drink anymore (and no more having to wop my boobs out in public, hooray!) – it also feels very sad. It’s difficult to say why exactly, I think it is largely because it marks the end of this time in our lives – I will be going back to work soon and Elsie will be going to nursery – we won’t be each other’s whole lives anymore. I have enjoyed this time so much, and it is going to end. And also I think I have a strange sense that breastfeeding keeps her safe, and nothing bad can happen to her health wise while I continue to give her this magic strength giving elixir every day! I almost feel like by stopping this I am stopping some kind of cosmic protection – and taking the first step to letting her fend for herself.

We got millions of pictures back the other day – but first here is another of Elsie enjoying that bolognese!